Who is Moipone? I find myself asking myself this question Who Am I? Well, I am a thirty-year-old woman, a mother to the most adorable seven-year-old girl. What do I stand for? I really don’t know I just realized that I am a people pleaser never really spoke my mind and always worried what I say will hurt the next person.
I have lived my life pleasing my family trying to live up to this pedestal that they have put me on “The good Girl” pedestal let me tell you it is really exhausting. I wanted a tattoo, but know the man in my life things is evil like seriously, it’s my body or did I give up me for our and come to think about it, I never had a say in what he wanted to do in his life even if I said no he did it anyway.
I wanted to travel, but hey my mother thought differently, hence why I am still in South Africa. I wanted to study drama and my parents told me there is no money in Arts in South Africa and we will not pay for you to study it, I ended up doing another course which I loved too.
The question is who is Moipone? What do I stand for? What do I believe in? That is the big three questions as I try to discover myself at thirty years old. I am a creative soul feeling caged in the ideals of what people in my life think I should be and today right now I am sick and tired.
I am going to get that tattoo or two (ha-ha), I am going to stop letting people decide for me, hell I am going to try sushi. I am going to really try to see people for what they really are, because my weakness is that I am naïve and always try to see the best in people even when they are just straight cruel and evil.
I have been so consumed by stress caused by other people in my life that I have forgotten how much I loved writing poetry, I forgot how to be me. The shy girl who loved to laugh, smile and love. The girl who loved going to the movies and experience the thrill of seeing amazing movies on the big screen. I forgot to dance in my underwear and sing out loud with my horrible voice.
Be The Change You Wish to See in The World
I will be the change I want to see in my life before I can take on the world. Have you ever lost yourself and your voice and how did you overcome it?